When did you learn the term "transgender" referred to you?
That's Hannah up there.
Well, You see I grew up in a Christian house with 5 older siblings (3 sisters and 1 brother). Yes, I grew up as a little girl and never really heard the term Trans till about the age of twelve or so. During that time I knew there was something different about me compared to the other kids I played with but obviously didn't really pay much attention to it. My friends and I played "imaginary games" Where now I'd just call it poor roleplay. hah. But they always had me play the boy roles and told me that I'd make a really cool guy or that I'd be better as one. Which only furthered my confusion though I didn't think too much into it.
Once I started 6th grade I instantly became best friends with this girl named Lucy. I found her adorable, really nice, cool, and slowly found that my feelings drifted from best friend to love interest I guess. So one night when I slept over she kissed me. So I told her how I felt and she told me in these words,
"but you're a girl."
And of course I was devastated and was sadly hung up about it for the rest of my 6th grade experience. At school she referred to me as a "lezbo" and things like that to add onto my growing depression. I was upset because I didn't think of it like that and thought of myself as a guy just liking a girl. It kinda sounds weird when I write it but yeah
So during that summer I stayed in my house and was too ashamed and afraid to leave my house till I moved to this shitty little town. At first I was so excited for the change of scenery and people. The first day of school I was reunited with a childhood buddy named Jordan which was nice since I was new. I made a best friend which I've mentioned on my blog before- Madison. Months after adjusting to the new area, she got me to get a "scene" haircut and dress with more femininity.I have a small bust size and was pressured to get into push ups to look more "attractive". So I did. People started talking to me and liking me more because my hair was really different and all so I stood out like a leprechaun in a grey-scale background. But to be completely and absolutely honest with you, I wasn't happy.
During the summer afterwards I slowly was able to grasp the idea of Transgender and the more and more that I read about it, The more I found that I could understand and relate to it. Had a few chats with my older friends (in their twenties.) about it too and yeah sorry I dragged this on so long I didn't mean to. o ^ o
So, Hi I'm Kyle.