Black Rabbit - Part fifteenShiloh sat on the mass of red comforters and pillows in his bedroom, propped up against the headboard, staring across the room at the numerous photos plastered onto the far wall in messy discord as he munched the box of crisps in his lap. He dug his hand deep into the cardboard container, the plastic crinkling; he was nearly to the crumbs and he was still hungry. But it was one of the highest protein things they actually still had at his auntie’s, besides the icky greenery kept away in the veggie drawer downstairs- hidden in the towering fridge. He gave a small little sigh, eyeing the little black cell propped on the whale pillow beside his leg. He really started to miss Casey; they hadn't seen each other in days...well more like three weeks and four extra days to tack on. But he felt needy and afraid that Casey would push him away if he got too close; he loved that angsty raven, but he was scared that he may love him too much and didn’t want to scare him off. All he
Black Rabbit - Part six"But... You said you loved me..." I whimper. He just looks at me with careless eyes; the same eyes that used to show me compassion and instill the greatest joy in me. The eyes that had just wandered across my naked virgin skin last night and took in every detail. He shrugs with the shoulders my arms used to perch on when we hugged."Listen kid, I just wanted to bang you." He scoffs, almost in a laugh. I couldn't believe that it was the same voice that comforted me softly, saying it wouldn't hurt as he stole my innocence away from me.I feel the tears come on, but everything else in me is numb. There is a lump in my throat, and I can't speak. It doesn't matter though, since I have no words to say. Without another word, he just walks away. It can't be though. I want to reach out and grab his shirt, maybe pull him back into my world."No!" I suddenly yelp. And he turns back. That moment right there was the last time I remember even seeing him. His blonde hair falling ever so perfectly in
Black Rabbit - Part sevenThe late October breeze shifted leaves across the sidewalks and roadways, which were usually empty. But tonight, they were filled with children in colorful costumes and teenagers looking to make some trouble. It was Halloween. And every dressed up child that Casey passed made him regret where he was driving even more. Shiloh had somehow pulled him into going trick or treating today, which was nearly impossible for someone to do. The raven absolutely hated trick or treating and hadn't done it since he was around the age of ten. But, Casey just couldn't say no to Shiloh. Maybe it was his baby blue eyes, staring into whatever goodness was left in his soul. Or perhaps it was the simple fact that Casey was growing very fond of the boy. Their agreement was that they he would go trick or treating with Shiloh just as long as he didn't wear a costume.But as Casey pulled up to the quaint second story house on the hill, he couldn't help have a hunch that he would actually be in a costume sometim
Black Rabbit - Part eightThe morning light filtered through the soft baby blue curtains and cast a warm light across the cozy bedroom and onto the bed that usually just had one pink topped boy curled up innit. But this morning, a snake bitten rabbit held him close as they both slept ever so soundly. Unlike every other time that Casey woke up with a boy in the same bed, this was a pure, sweet kind of cuddle. As they lay there sleeping, Shiloh had his face pressed into Casey's chest, and the raven's face was submerged in Shiloh's soft, candy hair. Eventually, the taller of the two slowly came to. He looked up to the window, and then back down to what he had just brought his face up from. When he saw it was Shiloh though, his emerald eyes widened slowly and in one swift movement, he rolled out of the bed."No... no no no no no. Fuck... why did I..." he whispered, slowly crawling away from the bed.Of course, the whore thought he had sex with Shiloh the previous night, but didn't notice that he was still dressed i
Black Rabbit - Part fiveThe school courtyard only had about a dozen other students. Just mucking about; talking about their general idiotic things that went right over Shiloh's head as he wandered over to one of the few trees and sat in the grass beneath it. Blades of grass folding awkwardly and brushing against his puffy checkered pants. He hadn't seen his friend much today and it was already lunch hour. The boy never really realized just how lonely school was till today since they'd normally spent nearly all of their time together. Though there were some times that Casey would go off without saying why or where
Shiloh never really questioned it though.It's not like Casey had no friends before him anyways.. But Shi had just grown soattached to him and couldn't fight the often sense of jealousy that'd developed towards said friends.Leaves rustled above him due to a light but chilled breeze that swept along the school's roof. The thing that caught a nearby pair of hazel eyes was Shiloh's hair. T
Black Rabbit - Part nineLater that night, Casey had left Shiloh's house, saying he had to go home. But sure enough, his car pulled up into the boy's driveway the next morning to give the pinky a ride to school. The whole way there though, he couldn't help thinking about that sweet morning they spent together and the kiss they shared at the park. The scenes just replayed in his head over and over again, and every time, his stomach felt fluttery. As he sat there in Shiloh's driveway, waiting for him to come out, he just let his head fall back on the headrest of his seat and smiled warmly. Even though the chill of autumn slowly crept into the car and through his thin sweater, those memories just made him feel oh so warm.The pinky soon came out of his house and ran up to the car; his thick pink hair bouncing with his steps as he got in and sat beside Casey in the passenger's seat."Hi Casey~ How're you?" Shi asked with his lips curled into a sweet smile as he buckled himself in and pulled his hands into his bunn
Black Rabbit - Part four"Out! Everyone out!" Casey yelled from the top of the stairs. He was absolutely pissed at himself. This whole thing was a stupid idea. Not only did he jeopardize his best and only friendship, but Shiloh's house was absolutely trashed. Of course, no one could really hear him over the music, so the teen had to use force. He roughly pushed people out of the way of the stereo, and abruptly turned it off. "I SAID EVERYONE FUCKING OUT. NOW." he screamed.With grunts and complaints, most of the teenagers left, but Casey then had to go upstairs and chase some kids out of bedrooms and bathrooms. Once the house was completely empty except for Shiloh and himself, Casey let himself fall on the couch. He was riddled with regret and guilt, and the dark thoughts began to creep back into his mind. He wanted to die for what he did to Shiloh, even though he had done much worse before. "I can't believe I did that to Shiloh. MY Shiloh." Casey muttered to himself, rubbing his eyes. But it took him a second
Black Rabbit - Part threeCasey was absolutely shocked by what he saw, but he didn't yell or anything. Instead, he just hurried inside the closet and shut the door behind him. At this point the slut didn't really know what to do. His better judgment had flown out the window long ago even though he wasn't all that drunk. And in this situation, he didn't really know what to do other than take advantage. Plus, Shiloh probably wouldn't even remember in the morning. Without a second thought, Casey pinned the blindfolded boy against the free wall of the cluttered closet, going to suck and bite at his neck roughly. It was almost like Casey was on ecstasy; everything about Shiloh was just so soft. The pale flesh of his neck was like baby's skin against Casey's rough, chapped lips and teeth yellowed from smoking.Shiloh sucked in a breath, his muscles tensing once the rough mouth made contact- toes curling in tightly on the thin carpet. This was surely not the type of surprise that he'd had in mind. Though he honestly h
It's the first door to the leftSo once upon a time in the school library today, the librarian kept misgendering me after seeing my library records (they're separate form the main school records and for some reason my biological name and gender marker aren't changed in the library's system). Even after I'd corrected her, she kept at it and completely shouldered the fact that she was using wrong pronouns and pretty much harassing me; that of course really pissed me off and I ended up telling her,"You should really get that speech impediment looked at, I know a great doctor in room go fuck yourself" I probably took it a bit far with that comment but seriously? What's wrong with people, that makes them think that they have the right to tell you what you identify as?
I. GRADUATED.WOW GUYS I'VE BEEN BITCHING ABOUT WANTING TO GRAD FOR LEGIT THREE YEARS NOW ON DEVIANTARTeverywhere.I AM SO EXCITED SO THIS ALL HAS TO BE IN CAPS BECAUSE I WOULD LEGIT BE SCREAMING THIS IF I COULD. I FINALLY FEEL STRESS FREE AND I WANT TO CRY AAAHAHHH. (I didn't have a chance at all to enjoy this yet because I was busting my ass helping my boyfriends family move) SO NOW I DO. I'M WEARING MY GARD CAP RIGHT NOW. I wanted to jump and freak out the night I graduated but I didn't get to yet. So.. I'll do that later tonight maybe like a freak. WOO I'm making a huge deal out of this. But thats perfectlly ok. Seriously. All the excitment is waterfalling out of my face like I can't even-wow.I'm done.ADAM IS DONE HIGSCHOOL. I will miss it one day. but not any day soon.Now I can think about college and get excited about going in september, VCAD... hopefully I don't fail and die. I WANT MY TEACHERS TO LIKE ME AND MY ART. please. I WANT TO GO FAR AND DO THING
Fursona CONTEST - Win 1000 POINTSOkay well, I've decided to hold a contest since I have some supporters. I never really hold contests so you'll have to bear with me for a moment... 8'IALRIGHT: Well, I've liked my fursona Celine for a while now. She's been awesome and though she's changed I feel like I'll still keep her. However, I feel like I could find something that's a bit more ... 'me'. I really don't know what I mean by that, cuz Celi is pretty much as me as I think III can do specifically... But maybe I can get some awesome ideas from you guys. <3The deadline is April 6th.Things I'll be Lookin' Fer:Species-wise: Dogs? Any sort of dog or canine in general... Mutts are acceptable, but I do love knowing the breeds, so if you could have an idea on a specific mixed breed, that'd be awesome. <3 I might also accept feline designs, but I don't draw cats as much...Design-wise: Something natural, maybe with a splash of bright color. You can do anything as long as it looks good, inclu
//flips logic out windowman I used to really like the trans-community on deviantart (or even just the community itself or even just any supportive community) until I witnessed the amount of judgement and belittling inflicted within it. Like people criticizing other people because they're "pretending", "too girly/manly", or even trying to tell them that it's a phase. FOR FUCKS SAKE, HOW CAN YOU GO AROUND TELLING PEOPLE TO NOT DO THAT TO YOU IF YOU DO IT TO PEOPLE IN THE SAME SITUATION AS YOU? LIKE SERIOUSLY THIS IS GIVING ME LIKE A HEADACHE BECAUSE OF THE LACK OF LOGIC GOING ON HERE. Like seriously there's been over ten messages from ten different people in my ask box this weekend from people who have told me pretty much that their trans friend things that they're copying them for also coming out, that they're too girly to be a boy, and a few others which I answered privately due to requests.And that is really NOT okay, I'm not even officially
Unfortunate NewsBlake Cognata, who was diagnosed with Ewings Sarcoma, a rare cancer that attacks the bones, passed away Saturday morning... and just days before his 18th birthday, which is on Monday, January 14th.I really.... I just don't know what else to say. It has upset me to no end but really made me see life in a totally different way. He's motivated me to smile through the good and the bad, no matter how crummy life gets. He was so strong.All of our town had a candles memorial for him last night on the hill of where our school is. It's an amazing sight to see.It's crazy how much our community was effected by the tragedy. I barely knew this kid and he's changed my life in a matter of a few days.But I'm proud of Blake.And he's cancer free now. I keep Blake's family and friends in my heart and thoughts!
BIRTHDAY WISHESOH MY GOSH, THANK YOU ALL! I'm so sorry for the lame blanket-thanks, but last time I tried to respond to EVERY birthday comment I received, DA temporarily suspended my account because I was making too many comments in a short period of time and they thought I was a spambot or something? I consider it a personal achievement but I probably shouldn't attempt it again, so please accept my humble overarching gesture of gratitude! Ah, but wow, thank you all so much, from the bottom of my heart. It's really amazing that each of you would wish birthday greetings to someone like me who is essentially a weirdo on the internet and I truly am touched by your kindness and generosity. Thank you very much, everyone, you really make today special for me. ALSO-- if you made an awesome drawing, please feel free to note me a link so it doesn't get lost in the comments-- I will try my best to keep tabs on the links but I might miss a few!THANK YOU AGAIN!STARFIGHTERCOMIC.COM
HEHEHE LOK AT THE COLUDSGUYS ITS MADI HAHAHAHAHA LOOKS AT THAT CUTE LITTLE SUNSHINE AND STS OH GOD I THOGUHT I SAW KYEL AND I THINK GGES HES GONNA KILL ME WHEN HES SEES IM WRITING THISI SEE ABELS ASS IT IS THE LIGHTIM STARING INTO THE LIGHT SO KYLE MUST BE KILLING ME RIGHT NOWWITH HIS MINDOH WAIT NEVERMINDIM STILL ALIVEKYLE DO YOU EVEN LIFTDO YOU EVEN SEE MEHAHAHA WAT R U GONNA DOIT SOUNDED LIKE THIS SONG SAID I CAN SEE YOUR ASSIM COMPLICATED SO IM CALLING YOUR ASS??THESE ARE SOME DEEP LYRICSHELLO YES THS IS ASSIM SORRY SIR WE CANT BE TOGETHER BECAUSE I AM ONLY AN ASSIM OGING TO WRITE AN EROTIC FANFICTIONthe ass slowly galloped to the bed where the man was singing and he keaned in real close and gently stroked the cheek of the ass and was lke"i want you so bad" but the ass was ike..."we cannot sex, i am pregnant with kyle's babies" so then the man wept and kyle punched him in the noggin.THE END
Humans..This journal will be deleted eventually- I have no real purpose for it.Humans....Are weird.Strange,And odd.Immature,Yet interesting.Their emotions are interesting to witness.I'm amazed by the way humans lash out at one another.How they can be such gentle creatures, then the next minute, blood thirsty beasts.I'm attracted to them.Like a scientist to lab rats.I like to watch.Humans can make strong relationships over time,Romance.But none of them are forgiving or understanding enough,Drama.To work hard and push through together,Action.While those relationships they made turn into a war over night.Mystery.To me this is nothing but a Comedy.Humans can act like such children, even if they are old.Everyone is always right.Yet everyone is always wrong?I truely do believe that humans are strange beings, and I'll never fully understand why they do the things they do.Does anyone else think the way I do?:I
4 Tips for When YOU Take CommissionsAs sort of a follow up to this journal: http://strxbe.deviantart.com/journal/4-Tips-for-When-You-Commission-Others-361768276, "4 Tips for When You Commission Others", this journal will give you some tips about being on the other end! Like the other journal, not ALL of these things may apply to you and you should adjust everything to fit your own personal tastes and such. All this is is a bit of a reminder and, well, tip lol. o1. Be flexible and understanding.It's going to be unavoidable. You will sometimes have people asking you to change things or ask you to show them WIPs. If someone asks if you can change something about the drawing, such as "her hair doesn't look quite right, do you think you could make it a little longer?", respond in an understanding and kind way. As a commissioner, the worst response to get is a rude one- especially when they are paying you to draw something. This is THEIR character and THEIR commission. You shouldn't say things like "
I is le foxSnake[x] Physically, you are very flexible. [/] You like to have power or take control in most situations. [/] You are a smooth talker.[/] You lie a lot.[ ] You can stretch your mouth very wide.[x] You intimidate most people.[/] Most people don't like you. [/] Your favorite color is green.[/] You don't have very many friends. [ ] You have more enemies than friends.[/] You are cunning.[ ] You like to be alone.Total= 5.5Bird[x] You like to feel as free as possible.[/] Most people really like you.[x] You are talkative. [no that gives them angel wing and they die >:I] You feed the ducks when you go to the park.[ ] You have been on an airplane before.[x] You would like to fly someday, airplane or not.[ ] Your favorite color is blue.[ ] People say that you have a great sense of direction in life.[ ] You have a lot of friends.[x] You have picked up a bird's feather and kept it for a long time.[ ] You like to be part
IT WILL BE A GOOD DAYYou know it will be a good day when you have messages from your TOP TWO MOST FAVORITE ARTISTS EVER AND Gift art!!!!HamletMachine AND onorobo replied to my messages * O *YOU KNOW HOW AWESOME THAT FEELS*rubs HamletMachine's icon*and thanks hitomi-the-brave428 for the cute art!!!I had a horrible day yesterday because Photoshop crashed after I didn't save NINE hours of work....but today I am having an awesome day :'DI hope you guys have a good day, find a reason to smileeven if one day was suckish, it's not the end of the worldLook here everyone, thing are about to get seriousA kid gave a speech today in class about a man named Carl Sagan, he worked for NASA and stuff, and he talked about how SMALL we are in the universeThe planet earth is among BILLIONS of other planets, our solar system, our GALAXY is among BILLIONS upon BILLIONS, and we as people, we are very very very insignificant in that sense (sorry
Oh my goodness.It's happened.:iconshilohxcasey:Thankyou Buck3tBuck3t, this needed to be done. :iconhappytearplz: