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Back whenever I started hitting the front page of DeviantArt, abit after I'd turned fourteen I admit that my ego popped up a notch. And not just one, mind you. No I was both surprised and in awe that some kid like me could end up taking up space in a place where only masterpieces and loved pieces were seen. And honestly, it stuck out like a sore thumb because seriously, My art isn't that good. I was blindfolded by pride in belief that I could actually go somewhere with what I had. But after awhile, pressure began to set in and I felt that more was expected of me and I couldn't meet those expectations. I'd never been exposed to constructive or negative criticism before that point; so I admit full heartedly that I acted out of line and childishly. Which led to people being angry and hurt by my stupidity, and I am sorry. It should have never happened, and I promise that it won't ever again.

So as time pressed on, I began to get desperate, searching out other artists to look up to and learn to be like in hopes of someday achieving something of my own that I could be proud of and happy with. Jealousy is ugly. That aspiration gradually turned into envy and instead of trying to learn from them, I ended up practically duplicating their styles and it was quickly spiraling out of hand like fire to pine needles. I won't lie, it was stupid, I am stupid, and nobody deserved to have what I inflicted on them. I'm sorry. I understand how you're dissapointed, angry, and probably flaming me while I'm writing this; I'm dissapointed too. I deserve it. It'd been kept so close and compact in my conscience, a secret that I wanted to just throw out and forget. But I was so afraid, and overall extremely ashamed of myself for being so clueless and naive. Sure, I cried once I managed to even vocalize to a close friend of what I had done and spilled everything over the phone, I felt like crying when I first saw that this had finally come to light from someone else's mouth; hell I even threw up cereal from the thought of it during school. Which was gross, but is beside the point.

I've made so many mistakes over my three years here on deviantart, some worse than others; we all make mistakes. It's what makes us human, but the least of what comes from them other than negativity is that through it; we can learn. I know that it hasn't been very long, and that people will probably never understand, will never forgive me. But know that I apologize and hope for us to go our separate ways just fine, I cannot force a person to like me or to change their mind about me. It's okay, I understand. But I want you all to know just how sorry I am for all of this. I'm sorry if I've ever done anything to hurt your feelings or make you feel belittled in any way. I'm sorry for what I've done, what I've even led myself to believe, and for being a disappointment to you. I want nothing else to do with my past errors and idiotic choices; to be allowed to keep on growing and learning to be the best person that I can be and to become the artist that I want to be at my own pace. To stop hiding behind other people's ideas and talent or using them as stepping stools in hopes of learning. Because that's just not how it works.

I don't think that I'll be leaving deviantart, but this account is still in questioning on my part.
I've only always had this account since the very first time I'd learned of the site's existence-
and I think that maybe it could be time for a fresh start.
But if I do, feel free to follow me if you're on the lookout for tracing.
But keep in mind that you'll only be wasting your time because that's not ever happening again.
It's a new year, and I'm letting all that guilt slip off my shoulders once and for all.


The respected artists will be credited below.

:iconlarkles::iconaishaxnekox:

-sincerely, Kyle:heart:

Edit: Wow, thankyou all for being so civil in response to this and I am so relieved that you all are sticking with me through the thick and thin.
It seriously drove me to tears and I can't thank you enough for believing in me. ;; :heart:
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Pajuxi Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:I
i just-
the comments from both sides are absolutely ridiculous, personally im not on your side at all here and think what you did was horrible in thousands of ways, but jeez guys calm down LOL

anywho i swear this comment isn't completely pointless LOL i just wanted to know: so i heard you did a commission that was traced, did you ever pay the person back for that? sorry if i missed that info in your journal or whatevs, im just curious, not in a FANCY UR A DICK way or anything, i just wanna know
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IcyFlamez Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013
I can't fault you for feeling like that. I had found you a while back from someone who had copied your work off of a facebook page. I was going through some Black Butler pages, and then I found the artwork under its likes on a separate page. (I doubt you even want to read this, so sorry. I honestly don't care if you skip it.) Anyways, I seen that it was a fake and I searched up 'FancyTramp' under DA, finding you. I was under my old account at that time, but unfortunately, I thought someone had hacked me, so I change my password and forgot. But honestly, I have always checked your work under this account, because I'm fascinated by how good it is, even though you feel as though you copied, unless I totally misunderstood what you were saying. (ADD, remind you ;-;) But anyways, I am terribly sorry for wasting you time if you read this.
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ScarletteLetas Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013  Student General Artist
Honestly- I couldn't care less. Kyle, you're awesome and I've caught your livestreams and tbh- you're epic so. People can dealwithit :)
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Zaziss Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2013  Student General Artist
I think you have a free mind, a good feeling and an art style which can improve, if you'll fixed you on a right art-way. I don't watch you since a very long time, but you looks like your characters and your art, you are really attaching and we wait your progress.
It was a really hard effort for me to read ( to answer and to understand too xD) every thing you wrote because i'm not english speaker, but whatever is what you intended, good luck, honestly. ;D
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Wolfief Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
aww Kyle I still love you...;c
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Scriddles Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013
Kyle... I'm kinda disappointed, learning that you traced and all... but, I'm glad that you learned from you mistakes and credited those whom you traced from, and that's what counts. You realized your mistake and apologized, and for that I commend you. Now then, I'm going to go watch your new account. c:
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KillerConfettiLick Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
We all make mistakes and we all live and learn.
And as long as the mistakes are behind us we all deserve another chance- you're a GREAT artist, you really are.. keep at it ;u;

I've been a bit absent on dA so I didn't notice this until someone ELSE I just met pointed it out to me- but it doesn't make me think any differently because I know how cool you really are.
You inspired me the day I met you- and I think that was.. quite some time ago. I'm pretty sure.
Time we spent talking over msn definitely feels like the distant past...

Either way don't think you can get rid of me that easy ;)
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capta1np1ckles Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
...well, this pretty much just ruined my whole life.
i will never look up to another artist on deviantart again. ever.
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whitezombii Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student General Artist
I will confess: sometimes I look at your art for inspiration ;v; I absolutely adore your style, shading, themes, ideas, sdjfhaslkdjfEVERYTHING.

kyle ilu bb ok
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ChisaiCho Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I stumbled upon your page for the first time today through friends of mine, I'd never seen any of your artworks before and I know little to nothing about you.. I just wanted to say that you have gained a mountain of respect from me. I'm not sure if that means anything to you but I hope it does. I'd almost stopped believing that popular artists who are revealed to have traced / copied / stolen artwork before could react in a civil and sincerely apoliogetic manner. I can understand why you did what you did, even though it was wrong. But you obviously understand that aready.. let me just say wow, I'm really happy with how you handled the whole situation and I admire you for being able to admit to your mistakes and not hiding them or playing the victim card like so many others seem to do.
I hope you read this, I really do, and that it makes you feel a little better!
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Fancy-Tramp Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I'm not completely sure of how to respond to this, but I wanted to let you know that I did read this and it did make me feel alot better. So thankyou.
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ChisaiCho Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm glad! :>
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more-or--less Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student General Artist
;v;
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spooningthefrog Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013
Hey, just because you don't believe your art is great, shouldn't pressure you feel like you're given expectations to what everyone else wants it to look like. It doesn't have to be perfect, cause everyone has to start somewhere. It just takes time for improvement to settle in, and a great deal of practice. It should motivate you.
Disappointed but very proud you were able to admit the whole tracing thing. Ill really be looking forward to your own style/original art up on here. ^^
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LordCharlie Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I bet everyone has at least traced once or twice and it takes a lot of courage to tell everyone.
I'm proud that you've admitted it so if you make a new account be sure to tell us :]
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DynosawrsLuvMe Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
guys, guys, guys. Read it again. He didn't say he was TRACING, he claims to have been using their style and drawing like them. He did say, "But if I do, feel free to follow me if you're on the lookout for tracing. But keep in mind that you'll only be wasting your time because that's not ever happening again." but if you have seen the credited artists' work, and then you look at kyle's, there's not really anything that's SUPER similar, in fact, their art looks very different.

It's usually fine to use other's art as guidelines for your own to improve, but tracing, claiming their art, copying their style and poses, is different. Unless Kyle has been doing THAT, I don't think he did much bad. And if you go to Kyle's livestreams, he draws freehand and doesn't refer to anything on the screen. Kyle I support you and at least you admitted to something you used to do. Sorry you feel this way, everyone does shit they regret, even if they say they don't. Hope you're okay <3
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dweebzilla Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013  Student Digital Artist
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DynosawrsLuvMe Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
well there's the proof i was wondering about. all i was saying was it's fine to use other's work for inspiration, but to trace or copy is not okay. thanks unintendedawesome c;
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dweebzilla Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013  Student Digital Artist
At least he apologized. You're welcome~
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III-rEVOLution-III Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist
Im so proud of you for admitting this<3
but im still going to be your watcher. we'll get through this, we being you, and all your loyal watchers.

in a way, this is a good thing.
and i'll probably get flamed for this, but its a good way to know who of us are true watchers,
who will actually stick you through this tough spot.

everyone makes mistakes.
but not all of them are strong enough to admit to them
i hope that you wont get a new account, id rather you stayed on this one! its a great way for you to see how far you've come in the future
and i don't mean in your art, i mean in personality, maturity, and nobility

im not sure if you'll even see this, but i want you to know that for me, and a lot of your other watchers,
our love and admiration for you hasn't gone away
but for me, its changed
i have to say that this journal earned a lot more of my love, respect and admiration

it might not come easily, but this can only make you stronger:heart:

-one of your hopefully many true watchers
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xbabieBCx Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Tons of people learn from watching others, especially people like me who are visual learners. I also find myself looking into others art work to see what I want to improve or find what I would like to draw, even though I should be looking for my own style/ way of drawing. Even though you probably get gazillions of other comments trying to be as supportive as me here, (even if I am not sure this'll help,) I hope you find yourself some way to what You personally feel better about yourself and what you are doing ^_^
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Nyra-kitty Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
i actually study your art sometimes to learn.. im so so sorry T ^ T
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SkywardDestiny Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013
Everyone makes mistakes and posting this took guts! You have my respect! ヽ( ´ ▽ ` )ノ
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Yattsu-Dev Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I've admittedly "traced/copy" in my past in order to learn. Though I never uploaded.

The real thing here is that you came out and admitted it. Whether you make a new account or not is up to you in the end. However, I certainly would like to follow you there.
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kimanimo Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student General Artist
This is now in my favorites because you told everyone what you did. It takes a big person to do that and if you make another account, I'd like to know. Hope you feel better. :)
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Loveless-Zemmy Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student General Artist
I've been scared all day wondering if you were going to close your account. ;A; If you have to please inform the ones that want to still watch you if you would. ;u; jckcbvx
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im-so-Dumb Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist
oh my. I didn't even notice. And I'm a huge (secret) fan of :iconaishaxnekox: O.o But you were just a kid. And still are. I'm too. And... That's what kids do. Fail. Stupid mistakes. just normal. Not very nice but very human. so. yeah. If you change account, please inform somewhere. So we (who still want to follow you) can still find you.
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SuperSilvane Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
and now you're marking =iEatMudkipz comments as spam and hiding all the others to cover your own ass

the fuck, dude
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ViragoWerewolf Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
he told me it's because he doesn't need to talk to her. :I
like...okay.
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MinZki Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
He did? What the heck D:
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SuperSilvane Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
yea trying to hide what he did i guess?

there's tons of fucking evidence of him tracing (and i found even more shit that he traced this morning, which i've got saved to give to =iEatMudkipz later) and people calling him out for it because he's already been caught 4 times now

the vile shit people do for popularity
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MinZki Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
A lot of people who are caught from tracing do that...
I personally didn't even know that he was doing it and got really disappointed when I heard. It would be better if he stopped it and started to make fully his own art, you know :/

I don't appreciate when people get popular with tracing other people's art
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SuperSilvane Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
i didn't even know who he was before i heard he started tracing everything he's recently done from *Larkles.

like man... he's making money off of her shit while she's working her ass off to make money at her job and off of her own ORIGINAL commissions

and you're gonna do that and not feel guilty about it?
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ChisaiCho Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
"you're gonna do that and not feel guilty about it?"
Did you even read the journal?!
I think he made it pretty clear that he felt very guilty about it, to the point where he broke down into tears.
Of course it's wrong, I'm not even going to dream of denying that, but you people seem not to have understood a thing of what he's written. the secret's out. he's confessed and admitted to all the things he's done wrong, apologized and promised not to trace ever again, which is a statement I believe because people are going to jump on every piece of artwork he submits in future to see if it's stolen or not, and continuing to trace would just be really really stupid and pointless.
I think tracing is wrong. Art theft is wrong. I get extremely mad about this kind of stuff but I gotta say I admire his reaction because he had the guts to admit it unlike some people e.g. healingwind.
What more do you want him to do?
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MinZki Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Oh dear lord, I never guessed that he was doing such a thing
it's wrong to sell traced works and just think that you will get away from it

I don't even know what to think about, like, is he really a nice guy or just acting in order to keep his fans
this all is so confusing
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SuperSilvane Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
yea, i know. i honestly believe at this point it's just the popularity encouraging him to keep it up, which is really sad since it's all been gained unfairly in the first place.
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MinZki Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
It is sad to see how the popularity gets high up to their heads and they just don't care anymore and wait this kind of problems to just vanish away since the fans forgive him.
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flashsteps Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You've been tracing this whole time? God, dude, you were my hero.
But...as long as you promise NEVER to do this again, especially not with commissions, you still will be and shall be forgiven ; u ;
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Teh-Amazing-Grim Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2013  Student General Artist
He's been caught 4 times....
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flashsteps Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah, but he never came out about it before, and he's on a new account now, so i feel there's a chance he could change. But if he's caught again even after all this then well i will hate him.
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Teh-Amazing-Grim Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2013  Student General Artist
Yeah..It really sucks is all when I think about it...
He was my idol.
So even now I'm having a hard time not being angry. :/
You are very forgiving which is something I am not.
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flashsteps Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It's cool bro, i understand where you coming from <3
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LittleMissAlexius Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Have I missed something?
Everyone makes mistakes, we're human afterall and no one is perfect. And with this, I say you've already become a great artist C:
But seriously, what happened?
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Toxic-Adotpables Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013
he traced once/twice , jocelyn sent a message so he could stop , he didn't stopped and now the truth came out :I

at least 50% of his gallery is traced :c
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LittleMissAlexius Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
ah, I see
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GlitchedCities Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013
Just look at these comments. So many people are here for you! Everyone makes mistakes, but you've admitted to your mistakes and everyone still believes in you. Good luck with whatever happens! :hug:
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TeleportingLemonDrop Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013
Kyle, everyone makes mistakes. Those are in the past now. I love your art and your general awesomeness. Good luck with everything.
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Mell-Ri Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student General Artist
I'm so glad you posted this. I was disappointed not in you, but the people who so quickly turned against you for not waiting to hear your side of the story. So thank you for this, and of course I'm okay with this. I'm so proud of you. This just goes to show how much more you've grown. :heart:
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R00DPRINCE Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Aw hun, don't worry about all of that. It's big of you to tell everyone about it and to be honest, it amends your mistakes well enough! Don't worry, I know I'm still stickin' around :heart:
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DarkBlue-Icing Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
prrfff , I do not show up much or anything , but I'd still be there for ya 8'D ..
just still being .. some creepy stalker dude XD
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