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Back whenever I started hitting the front page of DeviantArt, abit after I'd turned fourteen I admit that my ego popped up a notch. And not just one, mind you. No I was both surprised and in awe that some kid like me could end up taking up space in a place where only masterpieces and loved pieces were seen. And honestly, it stuck out like a sore thumb because seriously, My art isn't that good. I was blindfolded by pride in belief that I could actually go somewhere with what I had. But after awhile, pressure began to set in and I felt that more was expected of me and I couldn't meet those expectations. I'd never been exposed to constructive or negative criticism before that point; so I admit full heartedly that I acted out of line and childishly. Which led to people being angry and hurt by my stupidity, and I am sorry. It should have never happened, and I promise that it won't ever again.
So as time pressed on, I began to get desperate, searching out other artists to look up to and learn to be like in hopes of someday achieving something of my own that I could be proud of and happy with. Jealousy is ugly. That aspiration gradually turned into envy and instead of trying to learn from them, I ended up practically duplicating their styles and it was quickly spiraling out of hand like fire to pine needles. I won't lie, it was stupid, I am stupid, and nobody deserved to have what I inflicted on them. I'm sorry. I understand how you're dissapointed, angry, and probably flaming me while I'm writing this; I'm dissapointed too. I deserve it. It'd been kept so close and compact in my conscience, a secret that I wanted to just throw out and forget. But I was so afraid, and overall extremely ashamed of myself for being so clueless and naive. Sure, I cried once I managed to even vocalize to a close friend of what I had done and spilled everything over the phone, I felt like crying when I first saw that this had finally come to light from someone else's mouth; hell I even threw up cereal from the thought of it during school. Which was gross, but is beside the point.
I've made so many mistakes over my three years here on deviantart, some worse than others; we all make mistakes. It's what makes us human, but the least of what comes from them other than negativity is that through it; we can learn. I know that it hasn't been very long, and that people will probably never understand, will never forgive me. But know that I apologize and hope for us to go our separate ways just fine, I cannot force a person to like me or to change their mind about me. It's okay, I understand. But I want you all to know just how sorry I am for all of this. I'm sorry if I've ever done anything to hurt your feelings or make you feel belittled in any way. I'm sorry for what I've done, what I've even led myself to believe, and for being a disappointment to you. I want nothing else to do with my past errors and idiotic choices; to be allowed to keep on growing and learning to be the best person that I can be and to become the artist that I want to be at my own pace. To stop hiding behind other people's ideas and talent or using them as stepping stools in hopes of learning. Because that's just not how it works.
I don't think that I'll be leaving deviantart, but this account is still in questioning on my part.
I've only always had this account since the very first time I'd learned of the site's existence-
and I think that maybe it could be time for a fresh start.
But if I do, feel free to follow me if you're on the lookout for tracing.
But keep in mind that you'll only be wasting your time because that's not ever happening again.
It's a new year, and I'm letting all that guilt slip off my shoulders once and for all.
The respected artists will be credited below.
-sincerely, Kyle
Edit: Wow, thankyou all for being so civil in response to this and I am so relieved that you all are sticking with me through the thick and thin.
It seriously drove me to tears and I can't thank you enough for believing in me. ;;
So as time pressed on, I began to get desperate, searching out other artists to look up to and learn to be like in hopes of someday achieving something of my own that I could be proud of and happy with. Jealousy is ugly. That aspiration gradually turned into envy and instead of trying to learn from them, I ended up practically duplicating their styles and it was quickly spiraling out of hand like fire to pine needles. I won't lie, it was stupid, I am stupid, and nobody deserved to have what I inflicted on them. I'm sorry. I understand how you're dissapointed, angry, and probably flaming me while I'm writing this; I'm dissapointed too. I deserve it. It'd been kept so close and compact in my conscience, a secret that I wanted to just throw out and forget. But I was so afraid, and overall extremely ashamed of myself for being so clueless and naive. Sure, I cried once I managed to even vocalize to a close friend of what I had done and spilled everything over the phone, I felt like crying when I first saw that this had finally come to light from someone else's mouth; hell I even threw up cereal from the thought of it during school. Which was gross, but is beside the point.
I've made so many mistakes over my three years here on deviantart, some worse than others; we all make mistakes. It's what makes us human, but the least of what comes from them other than negativity is that through it; we can learn. I know that it hasn't been very long, and that people will probably never understand, will never forgive me. But know that I apologize and hope for us to go our separate ways just fine, I cannot force a person to like me or to change their mind about me. It's okay, I understand. But I want you all to know just how sorry I am for all of this. I'm sorry if I've ever done anything to hurt your feelings or make you feel belittled in any way. I'm sorry for what I've done, what I've even led myself to believe, and for being a disappointment to you. I want nothing else to do with my past errors and idiotic choices; to be allowed to keep on growing and learning to be the best person that I can be and to become the artist that I want to be at my own pace. To stop hiding behind other people's ideas and talent or using them as stepping stools in hopes of learning. Because that's just not how it works.
I've only always had this account since the very first time I'd learned of the site's existence-
and I think that maybe it could be time for a fresh start.
But if I do, feel free to follow me if you're on the lookout for tracing.
But keep in mind that you'll only be wasting your time because that's not ever happening again.
It's a new year, and I'm letting all that guilt slip off my shoulders once and for all.
The respected artists will be credited below.
-sincerely, Kyle
Edit: Wow, thankyou all for being so civil in response to this and I am so relieved that you all are sticking with me through the thick and thin.
It seriously drove me to tears and I can't thank you enough for believing in me. ;;
Devious Journal Entry
I really cannot comprehend how many of you still actively comment on this account, like it is genuinely blowing my mind.
The only reason that this account is still made available and not deactivated is because Deviantart refuses to actually deactivate it. So-- You know that I moved about four years ago to ScaredPrince (https://www.deviantart.com/scaredprince) right?
OI, THIS ACCOUNT IS NOT BEING USED
Okay so seriously, I'm only online it at the current moment so I could delete a message since someone came very close to digging up old shit which is absolutely irrelevant and I'm currently and never going to be in the mood to sorting shit like that out because some people can't seem to notice the dates on things. But anyways, This account is not being used, and has not been active since like late January of 2013 yeah?
So to all those who somehow found this account during that time and commented so much, I've moved to ~ScaredPrince (https://www.deviantart.com/scaredprince) and upload frequently there. Sorry for the bit of a sour journal, but it really bothers me when I find p
LAST LIVESTREAM
https://www.livestream.com/fancytramp
note: By "last LS" I mean that I am switching over accounts and want to make a picture to inform those who don't watch my journals because not everybody does. And no I don't plan to deactivate this account just yet until I can get the other one going and premium'd ect -- because coding was hard and time consuming and I love my coding. -- also so that I won't lose any rarely active friends and stuff. 8U so yeah, calm thine tits.
Devious Journal Entry
1) Do you prefer pastel or neon colors, or neither/both?
I LOVE ALL COLOURS BUT BROWN.
2) What's the last game you've played?
FARCRY3 AND SEXYASSS VAAS IS SEXY.
3) What animals do you hate and like?
I HATE BUGS AND I LOVE SNAKES
4) You're going to die in a plane crash and only have enough time to call one person and share your last words. Who do you call?
UHM UHM ;A;
5) Do you/can you act your age?
Yes and often older, but I just act like a Kyle.
6) What's the last thing you've eaten?
PIZZA
7) What is a/are "Best Friend(s)" to you; Labeling/picking out your favorite friends or those closest to you?
NO I DONT PICK
8) What are you
© 2013 - 2024 Fancy-Tramp
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i just-
the comments from both sides are absolutely ridiculous, personally im not on your side at all here and think what you did was horrible in thousands of ways, but jeez guys calm down LOL
anywho i swear this comment isn't completely pointless LOL i just wanted to know: so i heard you did a commission that was traced, did you ever pay the person back for that? sorry if i missed that info in your journal or whatevs, im just curious, not in a FANCY UR A DICK way or anything, i just wanna know
i just-
the comments from both sides are absolutely ridiculous, personally im not on your side at all here and think what you did was horrible in thousands of ways, but jeez guys calm down LOL
anywho i swear this comment isn't completely pointless LOL i just wanted to know: so i heard you did a commission that was traced, did you ever pay the person back for that? sorry if i missed that info in your journal or whatevs, im just curious, not in a FANCY UR A DICK way or anything, i just wanna know